Illumination

Since he first saw Christina his grandmothers nurse Ildutt has set out on a desperate and pointless quest to become normal Since returning from a fishing trip in Scotland that sent him off the deep end Ildutt has hidden out in the highlands in a crazy state Now he wants to get well Hes prepared to do anything to win Christina over Hell start seeing his psychiatrist again and clean up his act But hes also ready to follow a weird gurus teachings that risk turning his world upside down again Sometimes Christina seems real sometimes she seems like something out of a fairy story and sometimes shes like a ghost She intermittently reappears in Ildutts life and slowly becomes more real to him Ildutt is no longer lost in the cosmos hes firmly on earth beside the slopes of the Lorient river He has a cousin a grandmother a few friends an old Mercedes convertible and a bass guitar that hell eventually start playing again